basketball

lose a breath with every choice

just quieting the inner voice

everyday feels like i'm dying

can't take a break, so i'll keep trying

daily sunrise triggers dread

waking up on my death bed

lacking life support

trial on the court

no hope all fury

no judge no jury

but still feel guilty

from the futility

of my ability

trapped in the abyss

with every shot missed

new location, same shit

old mindset, doesn't fit

false oasis when i sleep

waking up, i'm in to deep

optimism. doesn't fly

easier to lay down than to try

praying for help to come from above

stay on track because of love

prayers not received

but don't be deceived

i pray to alleviate the sadness

God take away the madness

living for each basket

making it to mask it

playing until i pass out

so in the end there is no doubt